I'm sure some people would laugh at me and pat me on my back, shake my hand, tell me congratulations, ask me if I'm already seeing anyone else. The fact is that I don't share the same sentiment, in fact I feel the exact opposite. My girlfriend broke up with me a few days ago for reasons I have to admit we both knew but choose not to accept. Long story short we are victims of circumstance and we thought it'd be best this way....The thing is is that I still love her and I'm pretty sure for all intents and purposes that she still loves me. In the end it was the distance that tore us apart, that and the fact that she's the needing kind. Even tho we both accepted the break up now I fear she's going to seek the comfort in people who won't appreciate the beautiful woman she is and will only see her physical beauty. I'm not going to lie, I feel the pangs of jealousy when I think of this but the fact of the matter is is that she's going to have to figure this stuff out on her own. She isn't my responsibility anymore.....and it scares me...I just don't want her to be hurt. I wish I was still the one taking care of her even if it is from such a long way away. Even tho this is probably the end and despite the fact that we had some ups and downs, I have to admit that I cherished every second I had with her. All the goofy shit we did, all the little adventures we had, all the quiet moments and all the ones drown out in laughter, I'll never regret all we had. I don't want her to go....I don't want someone else to win her over, but it's not up to me anymore. If this really is goodbye I hope she runs and never looks back, I hope she finds someone who will love her even more than I did and who will stand by her no matter what. I pray she proves her whole family wrong and makes it big. I would hope that when ever she is still and thinks back, that she only thinks fondly of us and that she won't be able to help but smile. Goodbye little lady, I hope you know that I send you every ounce of love in my heart.
