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So I'm totally new at this, never really blogged before but I like to type soooo I guess this will kind of sort of work....maybe idk we'll see. The main reason I'm on blog spot is because my friend has a daily blog that he's started and I figured hey what the heck. My friends blog is dailymessage50.blogspot.com just in case anyone comes across this blog they can head on over to my friends. So I guess I tell you whats on my mind....well here we go! So I'm stress'n over a bunch of junk mainly school and my recently ex girlfriend. The school drama is mostly simple to explain....there a shit-load to do and not enough time, between go'n to school, read'n, working, trying to take a breather, and relax it feels like there's a test every time I turn around. So I go and cram for the next coming test and just when I go and take the first one I notice that I have another one comeing up that I've compleatly neglected to study for because I was studying my ass off for the previous one. Needless to say I've been trying to play catch up but of course I get these lazy/emo "wo is me" streaks and I end up doing nothing for a day or so which then puts me off from doing stuff the following days because I really don't feel like starting up and seeing how much I should have already done and find out how much I have left. Ugh Well maybe not too easy to explain. Anyways my girl friend.....well long story short, I love her sososososo much and shes loves me too. She thinks that we, in the end, won't work out so she has convinced herself that we must part ways. *sidebar* she is so stuburn you have no idea, so when I say she convinced herself of something....its pretty much set in stone forever and ever *end sidebar* anyways i love the mess out of her and I'm pretty sure shes super tore up about this too, but being that shes a hard ass she'll never admit to  it. But yeah even tho we were only going out for like a year and a half it was so nice. Every time her and I were together it was, dare I say, magical. Yeah yeah yeah I sound like a fag but I don't really give a flying shit, because I love/loved her. So I'm stuck at this horrible cross roads of A: just agreeing with her and letting all this go B: never giving up putting myself through a wold of hurt for her and probably end up empty handed at the end(not that I mind doing all that for her) or C: kind of siding with her but secretly hoping she will one day come back around and running the risk of having my heart dashed again when she inevitably finds someone new.......IDK yall I just don't know.  Well internet I have a lot of that playing catch up I was talking about earlier to do tomorrow so I'll let yall go. If you pray, pray for me.....I have a feeling this year isn't going to be over till its over if you know what I mean.