I want to start off by saying that this isn't for anyone or too anyone......its just been on my mind for a really really long time and I just feel like i need to put it down...... I keep having this dream sometimes its with specific people, me and some one else or myself and a small group, or even those dreams where in the dream you know them but in actuality you've never seen them before either way its always with people that mean a lot to me, people I love. In the dream something always happens, most of the time were fighting zombies or running from them or something, but in the end no matter how hard I fight or what I do.....they always die...because I wasn't able to save them. This is what I fear the most....not spiders, not things that go bump in the night....its that someone is going to actually need me and I won't be able to save them. I know this sounds stupid but it shakes me to the core.... I know someone who would say you just let people walk all over you, I just don't see it that way.....I haven't got a lick of studying done....back to the grinding stone......theres just a lot on my mind