Tha Dream

Ahhhh already starting to forget it So I have to jot this down! Ok so me and this girl, that  l like lol, are out by where I live down by the creek. I can’t remember what we were doing before …… maybe driving? Anyways we have walked down to the bridge and we come across a deer, it was a buck with a lot of points. It just stood there and watched us.  After a little while then another deer came out it was a doe, at that time the buck started to walk up to us, so close the girl that was with me reached out form the bridge and touched his antlers. I was so scared he was going to get spooked and gore her, but the deer was cool as a cucumber. So cautiously I inched closer and reach my hand out and started to pet him. Lol even tho it was just a dream it was the coolest thing ever! After some time the doe walked up to us too and let us pet her. Then this truck comes down the road I look away for a sec and when I look back I just caught a glimpse of them both running back into the tree line. Anyways the person in the truck was just some Mexican looky loo. Lol now here comes the lamest part I thought it was really neat to get to hang out with her like that….and to get to pet a deer =P Lord willing well get to hang out again soon!

I want to start off by saying that this isn't for anyone or too anyone......its just been on my mind for a really really long time and I just feel like i need to put it down...... I keep having this dream sometimes its with specific people, me and some one else or myself and a small group, or even those dreams where in the dream you know them but in actuality you've never seen them before either way its always with people that mean a lot to me, people I love. In the dream something always happens, most of the time were fighting zombies or running from them or something, but in the end no matter how hard I fight or what I do.....they always die...because I wasn't able to save them. This is what I fear the most....not spiders, not things that go bump in the night....its that someone is going to actually need me and I won't be able to save them. I know this sounds stupid but it shakes me to the core.... I know someone who would say you just let people walk all over you, I just don't see it that way.....I haven't got a lick of studying done....back to the grinding stone......theres just a lot on my mind

Sooooo met a girl today. She was a man XD jk Ahhhhhh finals!!!!! that is all...

Quickie

Sooo more of the same today, just trying to get junk done. I'm shooting to at the very least finishing chapter 8 in my Physiology book if not 8 and 9. Its just that chapter 8 is really really long. Anyways thats about it, might take a break later to watch American Horror stories with my room mate. Seriously thinking about getting a motorcycle just fyi.....just thought I'd throw that out there well class is about to start so I'm probably going to have to bounce. Thought I'd make a quick post so if anyone is reading these....what kind of bike should I get....and if i do get a bike, should I start making a riding blog??!!

First!

So I'm totally new at this, never really blogged before but I like to type soooo I guess this will kind of sort of work....maybe idk we'll see. The main reason I'm on blog spot is because my friend has a daily blog that he's started and I figured hey what the heck. My friends blog is dailymessage50.blogspot.com just in case anyone comes across this blog they can head on over to my friends. So I guess I tell you whats on my mind....well here we go! So I'm stress'n over a bunch of junk mainly school and my recently ex girlfriend. The school drama is mostly simple to explain....there a shit-load to do and not enough time, between go'n to school, read'n, working, trying to take a breather, and relax it feels like there's a test every time I turn around. So I go and cram for the next coming test and just when I go and take the first one I notice that I have another one comeing up that I've compleatly neglected to study for because I was studying my ass off for the previous one. Needless to say I've been trying to play catch up but of course I get these lazy/emo "wo is me" streaks and I end up doing nothing for a day or so which then puts me off from doing stuff the following days because I really don't feel like starting up and seeing how much I should have already done and find out how much I have left. Ugh Well maybe not too easy to explain. Anyways my girl friend.....well long story short, I love her sososososo much and shes loves me too. She thinks that we, in the end, won't work out so she has convinced herself that we must part ways. *sidebar* she is so stuburn you have no idea, so when I say she convinced herself of something....its pretty much set in stone forever and ever *end sidebar* anyways i love the mess out of her and I'm pretty sure shes super tore up about this too, but being that shes a hard ass she'll never admit to  it. But yeah even tho we were only going out for like a year and a half it was so nice. Every time her and I were together it was, dare I say, magical. Yeah yeah yeah I sound like a fag but I don't really give a flying shit, because I love/loved her. So I'm stuck at this horrible cross roads of A: just agreeing with her and letting all this go B: never giving up putting myself through a wold of hurt for her and probably end up empty handed at the end(not that I mind doing all that for her) or C: kind of siding with her but secretly hoping she will one day come back around and running the risk of having my heart dashed again when she inevitably finds someone new.......IDK yall I just don't know.  Well internet I have a lot of that playing catch up I was talking about earlier to do tomorrow so I'll let yall go. If you pray, pray for me.....I have a feeling this year isn't going to be over till its over if you know what I mean.