Gah

Im not sure why im in such a fowl mood, I just am. I'm just tired of people being.....people like; I'm tired of black people acting like niggers, no one cares grow up and be responsible, no o e gives a shit about your "swagg". Secondly I'm tired of white people bitching every fucking second about political shit omg I know its important but fuck I want to go a couple days without hearing about that shit. Im also tired of hearing about how 1.How rich people have it so hard and 2. How they don't make enough money which usually segways to #1. Mexicans are just as bad as the blacks but in there mexican ways. Asian people.....well I don't interact with them much so I can't really say. Ugh I promise you im not raciest I hate everyone the same....is it too much to ask to just be alone?

Progress

I don't think about her near as much as I used to. All the songs that would rip me to pieces are finally becoming just songs again. Even the thought of her fading away dosen't have that same punch to it any more. I'm not happy about of this  mind you, I'm just content that my life is finally moving on. Lol so I can go fuck up the next chapter! Hope not tho, I have new people in my life now that are really cool and to be honest I'm not sure whats going to become of any of them. All I can really do is take it one day at a time and see whats going to become of it. It didn't really cross my mind to take it one day at a time with her, it was more of a"this is forever". I'm beginning to wonder if I'll ever really get that close to someone again....I want to, but I just keep thinking about how it felt so amazing in the beginning with her and look how it ended up. Of course I then read back over all that I've written and think how unreasonable I sound. "Know what forever will bring?" fat chance. This love bull shit is just scary as fuck. I was just too damn young before, with her. I'm usually a chill devil may care guy, mostly not giving a shit about stuff, but when I have to put my whole heart in someone and hope they don't just throw it away.....I just lock up. Before I thought about how if she came back to me and asked me to take her back I'd have to say yes, but now when I ask myself the same question...idk I'd have to say no. Another thing is .....I'm not very picky. I get along with pretty much anyone I can talk to, ie. anyone who speaks english, and thinking about all the girls I've ever been with...I probably could have put a ring on any of them and would have been just fine. I'm of course speaking generally that 97% of the time I got along with them. Taking all this into consideration I sometimes wonder how will I know when I've found the one. Actually thinking back I recall one of my girlfriends say that I'd treat anyone I was with this good, and you know what, I think she was right. I'm sure that question lumes on everyones mind tho and that I'm more or less just wining like a little bitch lol. Ugh I need to get back to studying sooooo yall chew on that for a while.

So today was kind of lame....didn't get to go to the football game because  one: I was kind of hung over lol and two: I had no one to go with and the people I knew who were going are in frats and I didn't want to be that one guy who doesn't belong, so instead of going I got my "loaner" on and stayed home with "The Jew" (my roommate) and watched football on tv. Any-whoozle then I had been checking my amazon account because I ordered a text book and a battery for my Mac, which i'm on right now =], and I was checking it all day to see if it was out for delivery. I finally stopped checking every three minutes and then around 530ish I checked and it said both had been delivered so I went to the mail and sure enough there was a little card in the box saying I had packages so I am about to go to the office but then I realize that it closes at 5....sooooo that was a fail....then some other junk...lets just say I fail with people and things lol ugh any whoozle figured I'd keep yall in the know. Night yall

At the moment

Weither or not to get a new keyboard for my Mac; is the fan about to go out on this thing because it get hella hot and the fan is loud; my fingernails are way tooo long; Will I ever get this chapter finished because i'm just on page four and I'm pretty sure that this one has like 30 pages to it and I need to take notes of  all of it; I want my last text book to arrive like right not; can't wait to run again with my roomy its kind of nice to have someone to keep you accoutable. Just some things that are on my mind right now....back to work

Today

Didn't do too much today just dropped off some crap in Austin, gave a friend a belated birthday present and then drove all the way back to San Antonio and fixed the Mac which I am currently on =] Hey yeah! now that I have my mac I guess I'll be updating my blog like all the time now hehehe at Starbucks  lol thats what people do with Macs right?? So what the hell are yall up to? =P

New stuff

So I came across a Mac and wait, before I go on, yes I know I hate macs with a passion, but my old Acer is starting to show her age. So in preparation for the unthinkable I decided to create some kind of contingency so in the event that my Acer decides to make the ultimate sacrifice I won't be in the middle of Biomechanics with my tail in the wind. Its pretty much dumb luck that I could fix the stupid thing, because it just so happened that a friend of mine had a couple laptops that she was throwing away. Me being the tinkerer that I am I asked if i could have them and, to her delight that they would be put to some kind of use, she gave them to me =] On one the board was broken and the other one the power plug was scragged so I decided to pull the HDs and ram. Lucky me that that old mac used pc 5200 ram, if my memory serves me correct, and I swapped the 160 gb HD for one of the 350 I pulled from the other lappys. So basically all I'm waiting for is the OS X I ordered and it should be good to go....hopefully lol O I also had to epoxy one spot of the case where it was cracked and hanging off....and it doesn't have a battery but ya know what?! One problem at a time. Even tho it needs a batt. I still have only put 53 dollars in to it out of my own pocket, which I'm pretty jazzed about. O and the 8 key is missing but really how many times do you need to use an 8??? Seriously XD Other than that class has started back up, classes look like there going to be classes, and thus begins another struggle of fighting procrastination. I'll blog again hopefully on my "new Mac" sometime after labor day :3

This feeling again...

First of all http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hX2aWcJRKu4 and then weather or not our paths cross again like that......http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1CTCeiJOds&feature=related couldn't have put it better myself. God bless Garry Allen and God bless that little bell down in Texas......Good night y'all.

Good news

       So I was on Skype last night and was using my built in mic and what'da ya know the damn thing worked! Soo idk, if the damn thing will behave I might just get a bigger hard drive for this thing and be done with it. It is, after all, still pretty quick and works. lol damn Acer and there built Ford toughness! On the same note my friend didn't come over last night to bring his Macbook, thats starting to seem like it'd be a mute point anyways. So now I guess the only thing thats wrong with my stupid computer is that the video driver keeps failing.....I worry that one day it will just give out. I checked the error report and it says that the problem is hardware soooo yeah I just know the second I'd get a new hard drive the damn screen would go out, not that I can't replace it. Its just that by the time I replace all the junk on this thing I probably could have just purchased a new computer. 
       Anyways back to studying guys....I guess this is still going to be a workout up date, maybe. I'd have to start working out to up date anything! XD Cheers 

Hey everybody!

I just had an idea....I might turn this into a workout update/makeover blog. So yeah guess I'll have to pole all my followers. What all of the 0 followers I have are indifferent?? Well thats great! guess I just might do that! =] 

Good bye to you too

So I wasn't aware I had lost all my followers not that its such a bad thing since one was my ex and I'm pretty sure that the ohter on was her friend. Lol my ex, she makes me laugh sometimes. Do you ever stop and wonder about people sometimes?? Like if you could get into there head for a day and just see how they reason through stuff?? I think about this regularly for various reasons, but one seems to stick out more so than others. Its that a few of my ex girlfriends, while we were together and we were getting serious, on ocassion we'd be talking about our past/ourselves and they would make the comment that they were horrible people and they had some pretty dark thoughts. I couldn't help but take a step back and observe there cute, cool exterior and think to my self, "what do you have thats so dark and evil inside of you". Idk I think some people just need to stop blowing shit out of proportion and cowboy up.

   Anywhoozle about...no one following this shit is alright because I don't do many of these....and most of the time there not too interesting. So if anyone does stumble across these posts you're pretty much seeing how often I get bored and want to type something out....I do like to type..."Does that make me gay?" lol I love Keven Heart, that "nigga" is funny.

   So today...Uhhh I pissed away most of the day till my roommate came back, at which point we hung out for a while and had some supper at Taco Bell. The little bastard was talking just before about how he was going to let me buy him dinner, at taco bell, and along with 20 bucks would make us square for the electric bill for my part. So I go up and order a shit load of tacos for the both of us and as I take the two cups of water to the soda fountain he asks what I'm doing and then goes and orders his own food behind me. I think something was on his mind, what a dumb ass.

   One of my friends in town is going to give me his old Macbook and maybe I'll be able to fix it up. Hes not very computer literate so I couldn't really ask him a lot about it, but bottom line is It needs to have a web cam for me to be interested in it. Otherwise I'm probably just going to save up for a new laptop or something....maybe I should just fix this one that I'm on idk. Its got little shit thats wrong with it that are kind of annoying. Not that they interfere with productivity they just, over time, seem to get under my skin. One thing is that the screen after a while will start flickering, at which point I'll open it up and unplug and then re plug the screen cable. Another thing is that when I'm on skype the person I'll be catting with will complain about my mic having a lot of poping on it. I'm pretty sure its something with the drivers not cooperating with windows 7 which is what I updated to after having vista on here for longer than I care to say. another thing is that its steadily running out of room on its duel hard drives. I know, I know, I don't need a new one even tho the video driver keeps failing lol and ever so slowly my damn laptop is trying to die on me. Knowing me tho I'll save up the money and then just keep fixing this old piece of shit. Kind of want to fix my desk top from back home, the only thing is that it wouldn't be portable and every once in a while its nice to study outside or take my stuff to the JPL and camp out somewhere. Any ways I might try to find a form about the popping and ask around, besides the video driver failing every once in a while I can live with having to fix the screen every couple months and the lack of HD space......will just have to tighten up my belt.

Wow so I think this is the longest one of these I've written Cheers.

     

Shit

....The woman that I love is with another man....just finished my 4th beer.....thats my life right now

Soo pretty much just....yeah waiting on liverys.....yeah. I think I'm going to go down to the library here in a bit and pull an all nighter. I can't believe I'm already behind and the third week of school isn't even over....I really need to get my head back in the game.