Long shot horse

(excuse me if this sounds really choppy. I was just letting thoughts flow)

Ok ok time out. Time to state some facts and call out some BS. Ok so this is the girl who was talking not only about rings and married stuff, but was talking about it with me after being the one who brought it up first. Secondly She is/was crazy about me, not to too my own horn. Well now both of her parents are Aggies and her dad is an ex marine, so I know she knows about loyalty. Distance ain’t nothing but a thing and I know she has the tools and the ability to get through this long distance. I know the first year of adjusting to College is hard especially if you have a significant other and especially if there not there with you. I would love to have her back and truth be told I’d take her back if she wanted to come back, but with that being said I can’t wait forever. Not that I’m on the hunt for someone new, but I can’t just wait around for her to love me when its convenient. My heart is not a hotel, it’s a home for someone’s live….thank you Brooks and Dunn. Anyways bottom line is that I, like a moron,  I still have hope. Call me a hopeless romantic, but I know for a fact that she’s a hopeless romantic lol sooo its time for her to put her boots on with her PJs and save me this time. I know all this hope could fall though I remember my first girlfriend I grew apart from and I am well aware of the old adage about how if I love her let her go, but I love her and I don’t want to let her go. I’m not fool tho I realize this could be it….god  I hope not tho….I still remember that moment when it clicked and I let my guard down and I actually let my heart love her…..I hope that wasn’t a mistake. Soooo anyways that’s my life at the moment, O and I have tests and all the normal school shit life crap aswell lol Welcome to the real world, jack ass.